Wednesday, March 8
And going a little farther, he threw himself on the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from me; yet not what I want but what you want.”
This verse frightens me. Jesus prays to be relieved of the suffering he knows is imminent, yet submits himself to the Father’s will. It’s a radical act of trust; one that we, as Christians, are called to imitate. Yet, for me, this act of trust is terrifying. In my own prayers, as I petition God, I try to echo Jesus’ submission to God’s will—yet I hold something back. I’m scared. I’m scared that all the petty idols I treasure like Gollum will be taken from me. I’m scared to be scorned, or thought stupid or backward. I’m scared to end up like Jesus—humiliated and beaten.
Let us pray…Lord, I pray for the strength, courage, and humility to give myself over to you as your Son did—with every breath that I take; with every fiber of my being. Help me to unclench my fists and let go of fear. When I face darkness, take my hand; assure me of your presence. Relieve me the burden of my idols and illusions. Amen.